i just need to rant. and i dont even really know what about. i guess just everything that has happened lately. ive been dating the best boy in the world for about 4 months but weve been best friends since i was 14. and it slipped and i said “im in love with you” and i said everything i loved about him BEFORE i realized that i said it. and all he said was “thats so sweet” and i dont want to pressure him to say it back, because i want him to REALLY mean it, ya know? but is it bad that i feel like im fishing for it now, like he doesnt really care about me until he says that to me? i just feel so broken because i literally spilled the beans and he doesnt feel the same way. and i cant get mad at him for that- cause its not his fault.

basically it sucks to be in love with someone who doesnt feel that way about you. i just feel like this….broken stick and everyone else is still attached to the tree. i know, awesome refrence but its all ive got. 

im just so angry. and its probably not because of that. maybe its because i feel like this is coming to an end and i really dont want it to. because as i said above…..im just babbling now,

lord help us all